Still feeling super bad,
Don't wanna scold you again and again but.... Hai!
No one can understand me except those friends of mine who have more than one kids.
So I think of speaking to Valerie or sms Maggie.

I always apology to you after I vent my anger on you.
But you doesn't seems to know what is happening.
I know is useless cause I already afflicted those pain and fierce to you

Want to apology to you again for those times that I have lost my patience;
forcefully dragged you away from dangers, I know you will feel pain,
pulled you hard up from the floor when you insisted on lying down and fussing and licking the floor to show your anger,
put you in the naughty corner when you refused to obey,
point my finger on you and firmly scold you when you defied my order,

Those pain that I inflicted on you actually lasted much longer on me, I believed your daddy feel that too.
It making me realised that I have still so much to learn on being a good mother.
I wouldn't said I am a bad mother but I believe I can be better if i try to

Perhaps I should try to let you have more enrichment classes where you get to play with other kids because you loves company and you will be so much happier when there are more friends around.
Like during Aisleyne's full month, you are much well behave.
When I brought you to Valerie Aunty house, you enough playing the toy there with Jarad, you never make much noises.
Hoping that when Aisleyne get bigger can accompany you play and at least you won't feel being left out or lonely.


But asking me whether want to have another more sibling to play with them.
Definitely not so soon... really scare of it already

An age gap of 2 is really a disastrous that I am going through now, maybe 3 year or 4 years apart will be better as they have gone through the most difficult phase.
Can't imagine twin or triplet, the whole house will turn upside down.

Labels: Amabel's behaviour, Amabel's character, Words for you