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Being interviewed, today news: A legendary heroine 大眾之母

Her last wish ”要我們把她的愛發揚光大，造諨人群“

we're proud of her.

3.03am

Read back all my posts about her once again (http://mypreciousangel.blogspot.com/search/label/Great-grandmother)

especially these, specially to her

The noble one in my Life

This may come out to be a very long post. There are words which I really can't express out to them face to face and I will like my children to know how important they are to me.

My Heart of Gold grandmother-in-law (Your great-grandmother)
She is a very special and beautiful woman I have known. A heart, that's made from the finest purest gold. Being thoughtful to others, it sees sincerely as duty. She is a noble woman that I am so proud.

She is one that is being sent down from Heaven to save people. No matter what, she tried her very best to save people around her without asking for any return. She spends all her money to help people. Even if she is down with illness, she still tried her best to save and praying for a peaceful world. She suffered so much just to help others.

My children, you must always bear in mind that your life is owned by her. No her, you won't be exist in the earth. No her, I won't have such a healthy children for me to love and dote on. You may not understand what I mean and you don't need to know also. Just bless her, even when one day she needs to leave the land of living.

I will like to thank her... Really,
Thank you for being a special person that you are. Thank you for the love and care that you have shown. And thank you for the endless love that has stretched so far. The kindness that you bring. And the support while I am breastfeeding my little girl, Amabel. You are one that feels so heart pain for me when you see me trying to preserve in breastfeeding and give the best to my girl. You said I did it very well. She still can’t believe for such a wayward and headstrong girl could preserve in breastfeeding for so long for her child. You are one that encourage me and let me know that what I had done (breastfeeding) this almost 1 year for Amabel is worth it and enough. Is time for me to take a rest and boost up my health. You are one that made me feel better to the decision to stop breastfeeding my girl soon. Really... I love you! Words which I don't dare to tell you but hope that you can feel it.

And you continuing support me and praised me for breastfeeding Aisleyne. You're proud of me for doing that and have been telling others how great I am.

Thanks!

Once again feeling *sad*

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She leave us on 15 May 09.

Don't know what to said, we're heartbreaking.

This is what she loves to hear her grandchildren sing.
We sung this when she's still unconscious.



We love you!
Rest in peace!
Go back to the place you come from;
Heaven is your home.
I know you are above seeing us, continue taking care of us.

I will take good care of your two great-grandchildren you gave to us.
This is what I promised you~

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Mother's day just over.
It should be another memorial day to remember but it is not a happy one.
We celebrate mother's day as a big family with 阿嬷 every year.
Not to said, this year the same.
But this year very different, with her lying on the bed unconsciously.
And i miss her beautiful smile.

21 days unconcious and already into her 7 days without food and medication.
Doctor not allowing, claiming that it's no point as her organs no longer function, she can't absorb the food too.
We suggested to inject glucose to her so at least she got energy to help her fight this war.
Doctor already given up that's why no food and medication is suggested to be given but we still not yet gonna give up.
We chanting and praying everyday, now we can only rely on this.
We're still waiting for the miracle.
阿嬷 fighting spirit is high,
How can a normal human maintains their blood pressure, heartbeat and appearance without any food resource for 7 days?????
She still looks so beautifully.

She tried so hard to survive, we definitely won't gonna give up on our side too.
But doctor disagreed, due to the side effect it may have and may make her suffer more.

Doctor point of view is to let her suffer less and 安乐死。
But we still trying our best to prove it to the doctor "MIRACLE".
The miracle she had in year 1976 where she's paralyse but she walked (really able to walk) out of the bed healtily.

*pray*

We're blessed that the god sent two guarding angels (nurse; Weilong and Esther) down to take care of 阿嬷.
They're doing more than what a nurse should do.
They even want to help without any salary.

And...

Still this year, we never failed to sing her a "世上只有妈妈（阿嬷）好".
Even Weilong sing along with us.
How touching it is, right!

Not getting enough rest for the past few weeks
Really not easy for everyone, perhaps it's a 考验 for everyone.

Lastly,

阿嬷，

祝你母亲节快乐！
我们永远爱你。

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You're the legend

外头正下着大雨。
难道它也在哭泣？

睡不着！
越想越害怕。

有好多话要说，可是。。。

嬷，

谢谢妳。。 为我们所付出的一切。
谢谢妳。。 给我倆两个健康的女儿。
也是你让我知道母爱有多伟大。
我也看见亲情的团结，不放起地想办法，把妳救助回来。
就像妳坚持不放弃我们。
妳不停的救助老百姓，不管自己的身体有多差，就为了普度众生，而却不要求回报。
也一直教我们做人的道理。

师父说；
人总是要离开的，她的脸很安祥。没有病痛。
从以前到她还清醒；她每天对我们所说的话，说的教汇就是她的最后交带。
这就是她所希望的。
希望我们好好的教下一代。
我们能做她的子女，孙子女，孙媳妇，曾孙，就是一重圆纷，也很辛运。
虽然有很多起起落落，但能学了不少人生道理。

对！ 我很庆欣能做你的孙媳妇。
你一直希望我能改掉我的环皮气，
我答应你，我会改。
真的。。
我爱你，嬷。

到现在，我们都还没放弃。
天天念经，拜佛。
包括所有受你恩点的人。（數不清）
每天都来看你，祈祷 和守夜照顾你。

虽然，医生已证实所有器官已损，脑死。
医生和護士们也很精訝妳強烈的疫志力。
但不到最后我们都没放弃。
但也做了最后心理准备。

师父说；
也许这已圆满，她已完成她的公事，是时候回去了。

我们已都想通，竞量不在她面前哭泣。让她开心。
希望再次有奇迹。

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啊麽，

我們永遠愛妳.

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Phone is right beside me.
But I'm afraid it would ring.
I don't wish to hear bad new.

I really wanted to go but couldn't; Amabel was sick, they want me stay at home
I could only praying.

somehow this came across...
师夫說,
人活在这世上，就是来受罪的。

WHY？

生老病死。

that's life???
that is what we are here for?

I feel so sad....
I couldn't remember I cried how many times.
I don't want anyone to leave me.
We don't want her to leave us.

What I can do now, is to keep praying.

...........

鲁冰花

夜夜想起妈妈的话
闪闪的泪光鲁冰花
天上的星星不说话
地上的娃娃想妈妈
天上的眼睛眨呀眨
妈妈的心呀鲁冰花
家乡的茶园开满花
妈妈的心肝在天涯
夜夜想起妈妈的话
闪闪的泪光鲁冰花
啊
夜夜想起妈妈的话
闪闪的泪光鲁冰花
啊
夜夜想起妈妈的话
闪闪的泪光
(唱)闪闪的泪光
我知道半夜的星星会唱歌
想家的夜晚它就这样和我一唱一和
我知道午后的清风会唱歌
童年的蝉声它总是跟风一唱一和

当手中握妆华
心情却变得荒芜
才发现世上一切都会变卦
当青春剩下日记
乌丝就要变成白发
不变的只有那首歌
在心中来回地唱

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Will there be Miracle?

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Life is fragile

2.47am
The weather is so hot.
I fell asleep when putting Aisleyne to bed.
Sleep until i sweat that's why I'm up from sleep again.
And then remember to feed Aisleyne with breastmilk which is going to expire in another hour and do my last pump of the day.
Tasted it before giving it to her even though she never woke up for milk.
Heartache to see it gone to the drain.

We're back from Tanjong Rhu at 11pm, cause we need to work.
Amabel fell asleep in the car when on the way back.
Shower, last feed and brush teeth over there.

She is badly sick, sometime fine sometime really bad.
She doesn't really know about her condition; kidneys failure.
Her toes are sore (ulcer) badly, stomach and body are so bloated.
Water cannot be easily expel from the body.
Everyday she's in pain, must be really pain that she refused to tell.
She's always like that, don't ever want peoples to worry for her.

Since last night 5am, she never wake up at all.
No eat, never urine and pass motion at all.
For more than 18 hours.
How her body can take it?
Were told that her soul maybe down for some assignments
No matter how hard we tried calling her to wake up. It doesn't work.
Just like what happened a few weeks back.
All cried and
Amabel tried too " Ah chuo... wake up.... ah chuo.... wake up"
Everyone are worrying that her body couldn't take it and soul is trap and couldn't return back.
They will send her to hospital.

She's noble; she saves lifes
She used to be christian but after the accident she had when she is young.
She were saved and converted to buddhism
saving others.

She helps peoples, with lot of assignments to complete even with such a health condition.
She is just so kind to reject people when they came to her for help.
Without asking for any reward.

Once when she's in Australia for a long holiday trip.
even doctor couldn't save the person
How she did it?
It 's really miracle and unbelievable
even a reporter want to interview her.
But she didn't want to be interview and hence returned to Singapore immediately.
How to explain to them?!
They may find it reticular that it is the mighty
She even helped my parent before and without her, my two kids won't be here too.

I just wanna wrote this down for my kids to read it in future.
I'm not passing any message to reader of my blog; as they will not understand what I'm writing about.

Will stop here.
Praying to 觀音娘娘 that she is back and fine now.

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The noble ones in my Life

This may come out to be a very long post. There are words which I really can't express out to them face to face and I will like my children to know how important they are to me.

My Heart of Gold grandmother-in-law (Your great-grandmother)
She is a very special and beautiful woman I have known. A heart, that's made from the finest purest gold. Being thoughtful to others, it sees sincerely as duty. She is a noble woman that I am so proud.

She is one that is being sent down from Heaven to save people. No matter what, she tried her very best to save people around her without asking for any return. She spends all her money to help people. Even if she is down with illness, she still tried her best to save and praying for a peaceful world. She suffered so much just to help others.

My children, you must always bear in mind that your life is owned by her. No her, you won't be exist in the earth. No her, I won't have such a healthy children for me to love and dote on. You may not understand what I mean and you don't need to know also. Just bless her, even when one day she needs to leave the land of living.

I will like to thank her... Really,
Thank you for being a special person that you are. Thank you for the love and care that you have shown. And thank you for the endless love that has stretched so far. The kindness that you bring. And the support while I am breastfeeding my little girl, Amabel. You are one that feels so heart pain for me when you see me trying to preserve in breastfeeding and give the best to my girl. You said I did it very well. She still can’t believe for such a wayward and headstrong girl could preserve in breastfeeding for so long for her child. You are one that encourage me and let me know that what I had done (breastfeeding) this almost 1 year for Amabel is worth it and enough. Is time for me to take a rest and boost up my health. You are one that made me feel better to the decision to stop breastfeeding my girl soon. Really... I love you! Words which I don't dare to tell you but hope that you can feel it.

My grandmother (Your maternal great grandmother)
She is the one who taking care of me, feeding me and brings me to school everyday when I am still a small kid. She passed ago last year Feb 2006 while you are still in Mommy’s womb. And I am so sorry to Amabel for crying so sadly at home (as it is no good for the foetus). I were not allowed to go to the hospital to see her before she left because your maternal grandfather asked me not to, I feel so sad. I don’t even get to see her face one last time in the funeral because I am not allowed to, that is my regret. I really feel so sorry to grandmother for not respecting her and hold her hand and give her a hug once last time before she left us. Sorry… grandmother. I Love you. God bless you. One day we will get to see each other again.

My grandfather –in-law (Your great-grandfather)
He passed ago last year 2006 too while you are still in Mommy’s womb. And I am so sorry to Amabel for crying again. He love singing and I love to hear him sing those Hokkien songs. And his smile is so contagious that I like it so much. Even though you already left us, but your soul seem to be still with us, watching us, blessing us and your wonderful voice that we will never forget.

My grandfather (Your maternal great grandfather)
He has passed away very very long ago. He is one handsome guy when he is young and even old. I am so sorry to him for not respecting him when he is still around. Without you, grandmother also becomes so lonely. Grandfather… you are always in my heart. I Love you. God bless you. One day we will reunite again.

My Mother-in-law (Your grandmother)
A very understanding mother-in-law of mine. She suffered a lot as a daughter-in-law when she is young; she was not well treated by her mother-in-law. That's why she always trying to give in to her daughter-in-law and treating us very good. I still can't forget when I were lying on the bed after delivered Amabel, what she said to me once she entered the room in a wheelchair. 依玲, 心苦妳了. To me, she is a very strong woman. She overcome the fierce and continues fighting against the cancer. I know she has been trying to hide her sadness and pain. I don't wish to see her cry again. Whenever, I see her cried in pain, made my heart aching. I love to see her smile.
媽...
Thank you for endure my wayward and willful character. I will try my very best to be a good and filial daughter-in-law. You must preserve and I am sure one day you will totally recover. We are all here to support you and bless you. Love you too.

My Father-in-law (Your grandfather)
A man that can cook a lot of very delicious foods that I love. He is the one who cooked those tonics when I am pregnant and confinement dishes for me during my confinement. He is one good father, in-law and husband that I respect. He treated me very good and I love to see him laugh showing his bogay (toothless) smile, looks damn cute. He and grandmother loves and dotes you, you must filial to them.

My Mother (Your maternal grandmother)
She is a noble mother. All her life is being spent in working; for her children. She is working so hard just to earn and save a lot of money for her children and next generation. She just wants us to grow up without the worry of no food or shelter to live in. Now she has the wealth and can retire but she wants to continue earning more for her grandchildren and us. She is one who gives a lending hand when we face financial problem. We grow up in golden spoon, so both, your Yiyi and me adapted in this kind of willful character. She keeps enduring us and yet we didn’t show much respect to her at all. I feel so sinful. She loves and dotes you so much, you must filial to her ok.
Thank you mum for all that you have done for us. I Love You Forever! Truly!

My Father (Your maternal grandfather)
He started from a few dollars when he met your maternal grandmother to now with so much wealth. He went through so much hardship just to let his children live without suffering. We are fortune enough to have him. Pa… you love and dote Amabel and us so much, me too. Love You Forever. I appreciated what you have done for us. Thank You!

I feel so blissful. Really!

Sorry for any spelling mistakes or incorrect grammar.

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Going to visit your great-grandmother now, she is seriously ill.

Praying hard that deities will still be able to protect our kind-hearted grandmother.

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