Life is fragile

2.47am
The weather is so hot.
I fell asleep when putting Aisleyne to bed.
Sleep until i sweat that's why I'm up from sleep again.
And then remember to feed Aisleyne with breastmilk which is going to expire in another hour and do my last pump of the day.
Tasted it before giving it to her even though she never woke up for milk.
Heartache to see it gone to the drain.

We're back from Tanjong Rhu at 11pm, cause we need to work.
Amabel fell asleep in the car when on the way back.
Shower, last feed and brush teeth over there.

She is badly sick, sometime fine sometime really bad.
She doesn't really know about her condition; kidneys failure.
Her toes are sore (ulcer) badly, stomach and body are so bloated.
Water cannot be easily expel from the body.
Everyday she's in pain, must be really pain that she refused to tell.
She's always like that, don't ever want peoples to worry for her.

Since last night 5am, she never wake up at all.
No eat, never urine and pass motion at all.
For more than 18 hours.
How her body can take it?
Were told that her soul maybe down for some assignments
No matter how hard we tried calling her to wake up. It doesn't work.
Just like what happened a few weeks back.
All cried and
Amabel tried too " Ah chuo... wake up.... ah chuo.... wake up"
Everyone are worrying that her body couldn't take it and soul is trap and couldn't return back.
They will send her to hospital.

She's noble; she saves lifes
She used to be christian but after the accident she had when she is young.
She were saved and converted to buddhism
saving others.

She helps peoples, with lot of assignments to complete even with such a health condition.
She is just so kind to reject people when they came to her for help.
Without asking for any reward.

Once when she's in Australia for a long holiday trip.
even doctor couldn't save the person
How she did it?
It 's really miracle and unbelievable
even a reporter want to interview her.
But she didn't want to be interview and hence returned to Singapore immediately.
How to explain to them?!
They may find it reticular that it is the mighty
She even helped my parent before and without her, my two kids won't be here too.

I just wanna wrote this down for my kids to read it in future.
I'm not passing any message to reader of my blog; as they will not understand what I'm writing about.

Will stop here.
Praying to 觀音娘娘 that she is back and fine now.

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