Hubby bring my little rascal to her grandparent house.
I refused to go, just don't feel like going.
because.... hai... forget it
Aisleyne just fell asleep.
So I got alittle bit of free time.
Blog whilst having my dinner.
My whole body is aching,
started after I finished pumping milk in the company.
Maybe I bent my spine for too long whilst expressing milk.
and feel like I am going to fall sick; me got a mild cough.
Think I got the bug from Aisleyne; she was down with flu and cough.
Hai... long story, because of that I am super busy and tiring for the past one week.
went to NUH twice, visit GP once and PD twice.
Talk about it other day.

Amabel has been getting more and more out of hands. No one can control her.
Almost every hours she get scolded, punished and beat by me or hubby.
She made me super MAD and I really can't stand her anymore!!
Partly because I am too tiring, lack of sleep (hubby said I asked for it, cause everything I want to do it perfectly and unneccessarily - I don't agreed cause when come to baby thing, I got to be super caution), hence, it do affect my emotion.
She kept throwing her temper; screaming and shouting non stop for no reason at all which I absolutely can't stand it especially that high pitch screaming that really hurt my ears.
I asked her to stop it cause meimei is sleeping and it will hurt her ears, telling her later she will lose her voice.
It just doesn't get into her ear nor brain.
I warned him in a firm tone if she continuing it, I will beat her.
She doesn't scare at all.
So I gave her afew real hard SLAP on her arm at a go.
She screamed even louder that I went crazy locking her up in the dark.
Still she doesn't scare.

I used to tell hubby not to slap her face (He very seldom slap kid one, unless she really make him mad) now I am the one who doing it.
haiz..I know I just couldn't control when I'm angry.
I will try to walk away to calm myself down cause I know if I stay there alittle bit longer I will surely raise my hands again.
Sometimes it work, sometime it won't.
Once I get angry, I lost control over myself, my mind.

I know cause a year back I once lost control, and scolded a police officer over the phone when she wants me to report to the police headquarter.
In the end, still I insisted I am not going. They can just ask me questions over the phone.
This time I win but I know I won't be so lucky next time. ha

I do regret everytime I raise my voice and hands on her.
but now I don't seem to blame myself anymore cause she deserve to be beaten for such behaviour.
This is what I alway told her "YOU DESERVE IT"
since I talk nicely to you and you don't listen and
you deserve it.
And I 'm disciplining her, won't letting her get over my head by thinking throwing temper and screaming, I will scare of her.

I told her to said 'sorry' cause is her fault. She doesn't want mean doesn't want.
Shouted at me with a "NO. NO. NO"

What a stubborn girl, hubby said she is just a duplicate of me.

Often she is being scolded and beat by me and locked her inside the bedroom and asked her to sleep.

But after she has cooled down, I will talk nicely to her again why I beat her and explain to her about her unacceptable behaviour . Then she said "Sorry mommy"

Hubby said "她吃软, 不吃硬"
But I won't said "她不吃软也不吃硬"

But after awhile, she will go crazy again out of sudden.
Then again she got into my nerve.

Argh... headache.

I just so fed up when someone is interfering when I discipline my kids.
啊！forget it.

I feel so miserable keeping it to myself; I wish I can tell everyone or at least said it out somewhere like here but I am too busy with work and my kids that I hardly got time to login.
So I tell my cousins, my friends and my mom when I meeting them up.

Now writing it out, I feel so much better.
Think I got to do it more often. I will try to.
So if you don't like to see me ranting. Please get out of my blog.

Argh... when got more time then talk about it cause my head is spinning now, don't feel like writing too much.
but to post pictures that sitting in my memory card for so long.

Here a video on Amabel throwing tantrum.
This is just a super mild one. Haha got more extremely powerful one


But she never fail to brighten up my day and make us burst out laughing on the sweet thing she said and did.
I still Love her so much.
29 December 09 - Chalat for HP Year End Gathering

Afew videos first


Amabel try climbing up the stair without any support for a few steps, taken in December 08.
Now she can do it without support for climbing up two storey stairs not feeling exhausting at all.


Another one


Haha seducing poses. please dont do that when you grow up. I will headache


hubby colleagues


My pretty Xiao A

Setting up the fireFuture chiobu. lol~

My FIL joins in the fun, he prepared all the yummy food

Hubby said 'Beauty and the Beast'. *rofl*
Titanic somemore

The chalat room was so bigTraining, volunteered to bottlefeed my big baby

Xiao A sleeping in the pram

Very relax

FIL with Xiao A

See what is in his mouth, er xin lor

get spotted

drooling over the ladies?!

I think the beast, he also want

Birthday cake for hubby and his lady colleague

Amabel was so happy, she sings along the birthday song for them
Still got alot more photos to upload and alot more ranting from me.

Continue it tomorrow. I try to.

Labels: Celebration/party, My Gallery, My Video