Damn hot and piss off…
Need to reach the venue by 7.15pm. Earlier he called, asking me not to drag my work till too late. Still I only managed to get off my work 10 mins late. I thought he will be downstairs waiting, who knows he not yet reach at 6.30pm. I called him, I nagged that he came so late, later I will have no much time to prepare. He replied: “You got nothing to prepare mah”. I fought back the word: “I don’t need to eat ah, I pregnant leh”. And he asked me to eat “BREAD”. I *F* @#%$^^*%* him………... and hang up the line. He wants a usual gigantic appetite ME to eat bread for dinner. If I miss my dinner, I can only get to eat it after 11pm, time that the event end. He thinks I can bear with the hunger? He should know better. Slap him for using brain to talk rather than heart. Despise this kind of person. When he reaches the office, I just let him wait and go to pack my dinner at company kopitiam. And slowly have my dinner. He wants to be late; I let him late. He wants to be scolded by his parent, let it be, caused not my fault. I not scared of offence anyone if they think I am the one delaying.
After the event, I just bring Amabel home w/o informing him. Don’t have to report my movement to this kind of person who don’t care about me. I never regret treating him bad cause I don’t want to regret for treating him good. If you learn to treat me good, I will slowly change to treat you well. You treat me bad, I won’t give you face and I will remember forever. This is surely a bad example to my kids, but I won’t show it in front of them. I blog it here, just want them to know, how I will feel and go through it, only when they know how to think and get to read it 20 years later.

Afterall, he is a good father. After my rebel against him being not helping me, he started to help Amabel bathe (sometimes only), change her diaper, coax her to eat and sleep.

He loves Amabel a lot, search and buy toys that she likes. No much money to spend with, will still spend on educating her, sending her to enrichment class. Bring her out to many kids play areas during his off days, just worry that Amabel will be bored at home. At least this is what I satisfy with. So not much complain on this.

Continue later with more update on Amabel. Got work to do now.

Labels: Mommy's character, Roles of a Father, Roles of a Husband