Breastfeeding

I have always wanted to breastfeed lil A till at least the age of 2. Yes, i gave myself a big pat for making it through half way (to be exact 15 months) of the set target. But somehow due to certain reasons which I don't wish to mention here,it does shook my determination. But that's not going to stop me from breastfeeing for the time-being, so to solve the problems I planned to cut down my pumping sessions to once then none, will just purely latch on which I clearly know that it definitely will result in a drastic decrease of milk supply (with just two latch on), which mean lil A will have less feed of BM. It's definitely not for own selfishness to stop pumping milk early than planned but to make it easy for others (which is a long story) and also for the sake of big A, so the mommy won't has to everyday like a mad women rushing to send big A to school, i don't mind being tired to do all this jobs but as it does affect my emotion, result in venting my frustration on big A whenever throw missy tantrum; i.e. she refused to wake up, insisting me to carry her so she can get to continue to sleep. poor girl!

I have been thinking about this (stop expressing) for quite awhile but have yet to put into operation. When come to think about if to stop breastfeeding one day; many times I ask myself how to!? seeing lil A gently throw herself to my chest when I ask her "Baobei... do you want to drink milk milk?" with her sweet desired look and actions, you tell me how to?! how to?!

I really not sure whether my determination power now can last me till lil A turns 2, but maybe I shall just start to be more lenient to myself; not to stress myself about the target. Afterall, breastfeeding shall be a pleasure one for a mother right. I shall let nature take it course, be more relax, not to stress whether lil A can get to drink how many feeds of BM, how many times I must express milk, etc. For the good of everyone, shall just start reducing the pumping sessions to purely latching on twice a day (last and first feeds of the day) but definitely not going to end the breastfeeding journey yet. This will save lot of time spend on expressing, I don't have to carry big bags every morning, I get to spend more time with the kids, my maid don't have to spend so much time washing my 2 sets of dual pumps and load of bottles everyday hence having no choice but to leave Lil A playing alone in the playpen which most of the time she cry to be carry which make it difficult for the maid.

Afterall, I have been making full use of my expensive high-end PIS for 30 months of operation. It's time for it to rest for awhile again.

So when to start leh???? erm...... soon soon

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