Yesterday morning, I blown up.
Finally, that's then the ME.

She really made me until I super dulan,
I have been tolerating and
I told myself to ignore
so it won't led to something which I won't want it to happen.

Before that I keep reminding myself,
if really I 忍無可忍，I must still try to restrain my temper a bit and control it to the mini
don't go to the extreme.
Must tackle it properly,
if not it may hurt someone around me.

Really,
I couldn't control anymore but to scold her
But I reasoned it out with her,
she feels bad and shocked on how I reacted,
I THINKs she knows she shouldn't let her own emotion affect everyone around her.
After awhile, she back to her usual self,
happy mood.

Just hope she won't be emo again,
and my reckless won't hurt anyone.

But I really feel so much better after I threw out everything.
Now still under observation.

Maybe due to the stressful work, with two naughty + hyperactive kids and not enough time a day for me.
very emotional, temper not very good,
especially when come to kids,
I super impatient.
And I can react very crazy
I know, but I still...
Amabel's very scared of me.
I'm like a monster
Even I feel that I'm too scary.

When she knows I had turned into a monster
我說一，她不敢說二。
she becomes very well behave.
usually after a BIG CRY!!

I feel that by strictly punished her, she will be more well behave after that,
but I know my way and attitude is not right.
so most of the time I feel very bad yet
sometime I feel that she deserves it.
I feels that I'm in a position where there's an angel and devil controlling me.

Anyway I really looking forward to see her behavior educator in July.
I need someone to pour out.

Ok a happy notes
Denyse has turned 2.
Her parent celebrated her birthday in their house on 27 June 09
Here some pics to showcase

The birthday girl

Theresa drinking beer!!!?!

My mischievous princess

Another naughty princess.
And yeah... she can already stand without support
but just a few secs. hee!





My very good friend's daughter, pretty Theresa



They're just 3 week old apart, but their size....










Shall stop here
Got to wake up early to work later.
Night!

Labels: Amabel's behaviour, Happy Birthday, Milestone, Our Activities