4am
I'm not happy.
Every steps I walked seem to be so heavy.
我不服， 不甘愿。
I hate the way he censured me.
The tone he uses, the words he uses.
purposely find your faults.
Though i know that has been the way he talks to his family and relative
but he never dare to treat me like this before marriage.
Now I know the phrase "相处容易，同住难."
His family so use to it, doesn't mean I will and to accept it.
我吃软不吃硬。
So I alway fought back.
I'm just bearing it, it accumulated so much that it became xxxx
I know most of the time, the things I do may be very careless,
but when you talk to me please use a gentle tone.
I hate it so much that my attitude toward him is so 不客气。
Even now if he talk to me nicely, I also don't wish to give him nice face.
The more he don't want me to do it, the more I'll purposely do it.
He said I super attitude,
Yes I'm
want me to change my attitude toward him
He should change the way he talk to me first and 讨好我
And with my headstrong character, 要讨好我很难。

At time, I really want to stay calm and ignore the thing he said
Cause I don't want this to affect my kids
especially my ti ki character, I don't wish my kids to follow.

I trying to... but very hard.
Still trying to... but I wish he can try to do his part too.

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