Hai... every night is a nightmare to me.

It's damn a challenge to coax you to sleep at night. Normally your last feed will be between 9.30pm to 10.30pm and I will give you drink more milk (130ml) than during the day (120ml), hoping that will last you sleep longer. Yet you will wake up between 1am to 2am for another feed. And this is the start of the nightmare, after feeding you, you will be in light sleep mode and keep licking your figures and making those kissing sound, telling me that: "Mummy I want more milk, if not I’m not going to sleep”. So I make more milk for Rasiti 姐姐 to feed you. Sometimes we can keep making more and more for you, but you still don’t seem to satisfy. You will at least need 150ml or hit to 250ml of expressed breastmilk for that 2nd feed. Sometimes really scare, can I give you drink so much?
Like today, you woke up at 2am for 2nd feed and don't want to go back sleep and are still hungry, I gave you another 40ml, still not enough and gave you another 60ml. But you still don't want to sleep after that. No choice cause I am so tire, so I leave you on your bed, after awhile you get impatient and bored that no one play with you. Being ignored by mummy and daddy, you start to 假假哭, hoping that someone will carry you. I really 受不了and got a pacifier for you to suck. Yah after awhile you slowing fall asleep. I thought this is the end of the nightmare, who knows after less than half an hour, you woke up again, licking your figures and making that kissing sound again. This time I am not going to give you more milk cause you really drink a lot le. I just keep offering you the pacifier. And is really tire that I got to hold on to the pacifier for you. If not it will keep dropping out, you still don’t know how to suckle that. Feel so exhausted and wake my maid up again to play with you and I go to sleep at about 7.30am and get her to make milk for you. Heard from Rasiti 姐姐 that you only go back to your dreamland at 9 plus in the morning.

Pic of you sucking pacifier. So cute and funny!